Dream

Standing in front of a big class, Checking my list if those students are late or not, That is where i want to be 6 or 7 years from now. Inside a classroom. Teaching. Sharing things that i didn’t only just learned from the classroom but also from outside the campus.

 

I want to be a Professor.

 

These past few days i have been having this dream where i am narrating to my students my achievements and what is my background.

I want it like this:

 

Hi! My name is Jan Dominic Dida-San Rafael, CPM, MBA. I am 29 years old and i’ll be teaching you the Subject Management. Since we have 3 hours together, i want to have a good relationship with my students. Yes, I can be your Drinking Buddy, Shopping Buddy, Food Buddy, name it i can do it guys. I am married to the greatest man that i’ve ever met and we have two kids.

 

This is how i want my life to be after 7 years. 🙂

Reality vs. Expectations

First, i never expected this guy to have a crush on me. :3 i was very very shocked because he really said that He has no feelings at all. To enlighten you guys who am i pertaining to, here’s his picture. 🙂

 

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I have a big crush on him but i didn’t expect him to say that he wants to be my boyfriend soon. Is it for real? ayoko munang maniwala. I won’t risk being hurt again just like my previous relationships.

On the other hand, this guy from Davao whom I’ve been crushing for a long time already always comes in to my mind. He is also the reason why i am hesitant to enter a relationship this early. I like him. He is my ideal guy but i think i should put all of my feelings for him on hold first. I want to be ready kapag sya na yung magiging Boyfriend ko. 

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I’m losing hope.

There are so many things that has been happening to me this week and i don’t know how to handle this. First, How can i repay Leyz? I don’t know how i can produce 3k in just one month. Nakakahiya na. Sobra. Second is about Jayce. I don’t know if i should believe the one that i saw the other day.. He’s leaving for Canada. Why? Is it true that even though you’ve met the right person in a wrong timing, He is still the wrong one? Maybe. Maybe not. I’ll just throw aside my feelings for you and just stay friends. I don’t want to hurt myself also. I don’t want that to happen again. i just don’t. 😥 

Pugong.

Friendship is the best foundation for a couple. It’s really a good thing that couples should start as friends and get to know each other as they go along their way. Now what I’m about to blog here is unsure coz I don’t know if this as a rejection or what but deep inside it hurts me? He has a point that we should take our relationship slow but why am i feeling like this. I shouldn’t be reacting like this to what he said. I should be happy because he wants us to do things right. Ughhh. Anyways. Let’s just see if he will make a move if i didn’t talk to him.

Jayce

So yeah. There’s this guy who i’m super inlove with. Hahahaha.

But i don’t know. I really don’t know what he feels.

Anyways, let’s just not talk about the future. Baka maudlot.

Father Problems

Are you fucking kidding me?! What kind of father are you? Instead of encouraging me your the number 1 person who wants to bring me down. FUCK YOU. YOU REALLY WON’T SEE ME IN THIS HOUSE AFTER I GRADUATE. YOU’RE THE MEANEST PERSON I’VE EVER MET.